At a very dark time in my life when every window seemed so dim and each moment was a struggle to even breathe, I heard this song on K-Love radio and it instantly became one of my closes companions in my battle and one of the greatest avenues through which the Lord ministered to me in my suffering.

My heart was crying out every moment of every day. I was as though I was scratching at the wall in the dark trying to find the light switch…or anything for that matter. I was in a place that scared me. I was experiencing indescribable pain that tormented my soul relentlessly. The anguish was more than I could bear. Despair was an ever present opponent that followed me wherever I went. Like a fly that cannot be swatted away, my heart was sinking beneath the constant waves of attack. I felt like I could not bear the weight and pressure in my soul. I needed rescued and I was pleading to God to take the hurt from me.

In this darkest hour that I have ever known, I would sing this song at the top of my lungs with tears streaming down my face to remind me that while I was calling out to the Lord, he was with me in every moment giving me the strength to bear the affliction and make it through somehow. No matter how bleak life seemed, no matter how painful the suffering, as though my chest would burst open from the pressure building inside me, God gave me the grace to be able to wake up each day and face the battle anew. I was as though I was stranded in the ocean on a boat with no paddles, the sky was cloudless and the sun scorching my skin, and all I could do was sit there and pray for wind to carry me to shore. Days and weeks seemed to pass floating in endless waters with my heart scalded and blistering and no balm to soothe the pain. But as I prayed and waited, one day I felt a gentle breeze blow. I could not tell if it had always been there. I remember that one day I decided to scan the horizon and I saw a coastline and each day it seemed to get closer and closer. What happened in my soul, I cannot explain. It was as if one day I found myself lying on the beach with the tide rolling over my feet. I stood up and knew that I was in a different place. I had left the drifting of the seas and was now facing a great forest before me. But, whatever the Lord had done to me while at sea, I now found myself feeling strangely less lost and frightened because if I had found land without steering the boat, I felt that with him I could find my way through the trees without knowing the way.

But the journey is not over; the journey is never over. God I needed you then, I need you now, I will always need YOU! No matter how lost you may feel, no matter high the mountain that stands before you, no matter if you don’t know which way to go, God does. Let him guide you, let his grace dwell in you, let him have his perfect work, even if it takes years. Let God be your deliverer.

For anyone who is suffering in pain, hurt, conflict, etc. Or for anyone struggling to see the light that God constantly shines upon his people, I hope this song ministers to you in ways that only God can make happen. I pray for you to wait upon the Lord when you need him now for his grace is sufficient for you.